Be healthy, be happy, be humble.

The last week has been a lot of firsts for this little family of ours. Kailey has been sleeping pretty good in the night...3-4 hour chunks. Yay...that means Mama gets sleep too. But at the beginning of last week she was waking up at 2AM to eat and then wanted to stay awake for two hours. Mama was not happy about it the next day when she was dead tired. But a Mama's gotta do what a Mama's gotta do. Then it occurred to me she may have been getting confused because the light was on and the nursery was lit up like day. I only thought of this because my best friend told me a while ago babies just figure it out, what's night and what's day. So I decided I would change her diaper and then switch the light off and see if that helped during feeding. Seemed to help. Getting the hang of breast feeding in the dark was a bit of a challenge, but now Kailey and I make a great team.
She also has never been a fussy baby. I noticed first thing after she was born how she didn't have one of those shrieking cries. She just cried. So when she cries it's not a shriek and it's not so bad. But lately she's fussy a lot and I've had a time trying to figure out what's wrong with her. I change her diaper, good to go, feed her, good to go.....still fussy. I think she's just wanting to be held more. Generally I have no problem holding her, but I only have two hands and it's hard to hold her when I need my hands for cooking or when I'm in the shower. But we work it all out. The hardest part is when my hands are full or I'm in the shower and she's getting upset. That blood curdling scream that says, "Hey Mom, I'm really upset right now, just pick me up would you, before I have a heart attack or something." is the hardest thing. It makes your heart melt right there. She's only gotten that upset a couple times and seems to soothe herself if I am dripping wet and can't get to her. It's funny because she'll be screaming like a mad woman and I go to get her and she stops like it's a switch and then just goes to sleep. I usually feel a bit guilty by that time, like I didn't get there fast enough or something.
When I was doing the prenatal yoga classes with Christa we were in Savasana one day and she encouraged us to put our hands to our bellys and send a blessing to our baby. That was the first time I really felt connected to Kailey, to my pregnancy and to what was going on with my life as far as the changes and what have you. I can't remember what my blessing was, probably a whole lot of love going her way. The other night after she was finished eating she was nestled on my chest sleeping (sometimes I don't put her right back in the bassinet because I want to enjoy the time snuggling with her while she's sleeping...I mean she won't be this small forever) and I was taken back to that yoga class where I sent her a blessing. Then I put both of my hands on her little back and sent her another blessing. I wished her to be healthy, be happy and be humble. I hope she is always those three things. I can't seem to kick that mantra out of my head the last few days either, so maybe it's a good blessing and mantra for Mama too!