Cup is always full

I have loved watching every second of Kailey's growth and progress. To watch the wonder in her eyes as she's discovering new things brings so much wonder to my own being. There really is nothing like watching a child figure out their hands are theirs, watch them grab at their feet and watch them pick things up for the first time. It was actually bizarre to see her holding her binky the first few times. Both Nick and I were saying, "Are you seeing this? Look how she's holding it so she can see it!" See, we were in complete wonder watching the babe.

She's started rolling over occasionally. She's done it three times so far. I've only actually witnessed it once though. Yesterday she was on the bed while I was working and she was getting almost to the point of being on the fussy side. All of a sudden it went a lot quieter. I turned to look and the stinker was on her belly. She'd rolled over and pushed herself up to look around. That was a first. She hadn't quite figured out how to move her arm out of the way to get all the way onto her belly.

One of the weirdest things for me so far is looking at Kailey and seeing myself. I don't mean in her mannerisms, but actually seeing me, in her little face. It's like looking at a tiny me. The first time I actually saw me in her face kind of spooked me. There's really no way to explain why it was spooky, it just was. I've also seen a bit of my brother, dad, cousin, and Nick in her. She's a pretty good mix of Narruhn and James if you ask me!

A couple weeks ago I had to walk around and around in circles in our house with Kailey in the Moby Sling because she was not comfortable at all. She finally calmed down and started to snooze but I wasn't about to stop walking. The poor girl needed a nap....bad. So I picked a book from my shelf and started reading it while I was walking around, (I was trying to be on the quieter side so Nick could finish his homework). Anyways, the book I happened to pick up is called Yoga Gems. It's a bunch of little blips about different ideals and practices of yoga. Inspirations. One of the passages from the Taming the Emotions section stuck out to me and I decided then to share it:
Joy Beyond Fun
"I dont' think any sensitive person can be satisfied with having fun, no matter how much of it we may cram into our lives. Our need is not for pleasure but for joy-a deep sense of fulfillment that not only never leaves us but actually increases with the passage of time. Fun is living for ourselves; joy comes from living for others, giving our time and love to a purpose greater than ourselves." -Eknath Easwaran
This passage stood out to me because almost every bit of it reminded me of being a wife, a mother, and also a yogini. Really none of those "titles" as we'll call them are about living for yourself. Being a mother has taught me just how important it is to set yourself aside (also how much my parents put aside for me to make things happen). Not always, I mean you have to have some personal time to be the best spouse or parent you can. More often than not I'll choose to pass on the pedicure to get something for Kailey, or pass on going for a run because she needs a little Mama time to play. I have been the happiest in my life being a wife and being a mother. My cup is overflowing with joy, with love and with happiness.