For the last week and a half I have been out of school. It has been a really LONG time since I've had nothing to do in the day time. When I wasn't going to school I was working. It's been nice to sleep in, and yes I've been sleeping in. Kailey has been kind enough to sleep until 8 and almost 9 some mornings. Before break I had all these plans of things I wanted to get done: sewing an apron, maybe some totes, crocheting a beanie for me and the bean and also a shawl, and to read a heap of books. So far, I've read one book.
For the first week Nick was underway and in Port Angeles. It's really hard to get any of the above mentioned projects done while playing with a one year old. I really could have been doing more when she was taking a nap, being as she takes 2-3 hour naps, but I read....which is why I was able to at least finish one book. Nick finally was off on Christmas Eve and Christmas Day. We had some friends over and had a really great Christmas dinner. Christmas day I started to get a bit of a sore throat and could tell my lymph nodes were getting really sore. Yesterday I was full blown sick. I couldn't swallow much, had a fever and could hardly turn my head. I bet you could imagine how upset I was at being sick, but let us back up and I'll explain why. The week before, when Nick was working I ended up getting pink eye all of a sudden. A quick trip to the MD taught me it was viral and there was nothing I could do but wait it out. A few weeks before the pink eye, I cut my finger slicing an orange for Kailey and ended up with 3 stitches in my finger. I'm pretty clumsy, but really?
All of these minor mishaps and sicknesses were really starting to get me down. Why? Why is this happening to me? Why did I cut my finger two days before my massage practical? Why am I getting sick, I haven't been sick in years? Last night, hours after Nick got home I realized I hadn't even asked him how his interview for Warrant Officer went. I asked him and said I was sorry for not asking sooner and in a dazed, sick state began to cry. What could he do? Nothing. He said, "You should Reiki it away!" I cried harder and told him I'd tried. Finally he said what I'd already been thinking, "I think all of this is just built up and finally starting to come to the surface." I couldn't have said it better myself. This is why I say this:
About a week before break, or maybe the last week of the quarter, Yvonne, my teacher was talking about how it's important to find time to do the things which bring inspiration. She was encouraging us to do the things that make us go, that make us tick. I am guilty of not doing those things: yoga, crocheting, sewing, reading, and running. I hadn't done any of those during the whole quarter. If I'm not doing things to keep myself grounded and distressed it's all going to catch up with me. I am going to try and change this the second quarter. I will not be too happy during spring break if I'm sick like I am now....not happy at all. I will be inspired and rejuvenated.
Thursday, December 27, 2012
Saturday, December 15, 2012
Celebrate!!!!
A few months ago my best friend and I started reading a book called "Life Is a Verb" by Patti Digh. Life is a Verb is a book Patti wrote as she examined her life after the death of her stepfather. He was diagnosed with cancer and only lived 37 days after his diagnosis. She shares tid bits of her life and how she's learned to live better....everyday. If you haven't heard of the book I highly suggest picking it up at the library or even amazon. It's sort of a book you digest little by little.
I haven't really had much time to read for pleasure the last three months because of school but the last few weeks of the quarter I kept thinking about a story she shared about her daughter. Her daughter came home from school and when her father asked about her day she said she had taken her first quiz. When her father asked how she did she had a proud smile and exclaimed, "I got 30%!" Patti's initial reaction was to say, "You must feel terrible," but instead asked her how it made her feel. Her daughter, still proud burst out, "I got some right!" In bold text the sentence immediately following this story says, "Wow. What a fantastic way of looking at the world." Then she goes on to ask why don't we stop and celebrate the successes we do have? Interesting question really.
I feel sometimes it is much easier to dwell on the negative. I have to give myself some credit here, I feel like I've done a fairly good job at not being so negative, so maybe it's getting easier to be positive. Anyways, for a while much of my life seemed negative (drama, etc.). Then there was a turning point. Much to my realization, I was in control of MY life. Heck yeah I was (and am). Once that important revelation sunk in I was able to change the cycle of my thoughts and feelings. Then Nicholas came along. Life has only become more happy since then.
Lately I've been really grasping the concept of celebrating accomplishments. Not just mine either. I see myself celebrating Kailey's accomplishments too. For instance she's starting to use the spoon a bit more. She really prefers to use her hands, but I give her the spoon anyways so she can get acclimated with it a bit. Sometimes she'll hold it in her hand and shove food in her mouth with the other. Other times she will put food on the spoon with her fingers. More and more she's picking food up with her spoon and putting it in her mouth. I decided it was a great idea to clap and make a big deal with she does pick up the food and put it in her mouth with the spoon. She loves it! She still prefers hand feeding herself, but who doesn't right? I also celebrated with clapping when Nick and I were teaching her to high five. Now when she gives a high five she automatically starts clapping and getting happy. I can't help but smile and celebrate with her.
What in your life can you celebrate?
Here are a few of my celebratory excitements:
Kailey growth and adventures
The growth within my marriage and within myself
Successfully completing my first quarter of college, and with all A's (I'm pretty proud of myself!)
Being on the path to doing something I love
Succeeding
I haven't really had much time to read for pleasure the last three months because of school but the last few weeks of the quarter I kept thinking about a story she shared about her daughter. Her daughter came home from school and when her father asked about her day she said she had taken her first quiz. When her father asked how she did she had a proud smile and exclaimed, "I got 30%!" Patti's initial reaction was to say, "You must feel terrible," but instead asked her how it made her feel. Her daughter, still proud burst out, "I got some right!" In bold text the sentence immediately following this story says, "Wow. What a fantastic way of looking at the world." Then she goes on to ask why don't we stop and celebrate the successes we do have? Interesting question really.
I feel sometimes it is much easier to dwell on the negative. I have to give myself some credit here, I feel like I've done a fairly good job at not being so negative, so maybe it's getting easier to be positive. Anyways, for a while much of my life seemed negative (drama, etc.). Then there was a turning point. Much to my realization, I was in control of MY life. Heck yeah I was (and am). Once that important revelation sunk in I was able to change the cycle of my thoughts and feelings. Then Nicholas came along. Life has only become more happy since then.
Lately I've been really grasping the concept of celebrating accomplishments. Not just mine either. I see myself celebrating Kailey's accomplishments too. For instance she's starting to use the spoon a bit more. She really prefers to use her hands, but I give her the spoon anyways so she can get acclimated with it a bit. Sometimes she'll hold it in her hand and shove food in her mouth with the other. Other times she will put food on the spoon with her fingers. More and more she's picking food up with her spoon and putting it in her mouth. I decided it was a great idea to clap and make a big deal with she does pick up the food and put it in her mouth with the spoon. She loves it! She still prefers hand feeding herself, but who doesn't right? I also celebrated with clapping when Nick and I were teaching her to high five. Now when she gives a high five she automatically starts clapping and getting happy. I can't help but smile and celebrate with her.
What in your life can you celebrate?
Here are a few of my celebratory excitements:
Kailey growth and adventures
The growth within my marriage and within myself
Successfully completing my first quarter of college, and with all A's (I'm pretty proud of myself!)
Being on the path to doing something I love
Succeeding
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